It's been creeping up on me since Friday. The black dog has come back and isn't showing any signs of leaving. I thought that it could be a moment of low blood sugar but no. This low mood is here and it has engulfed me. I hate it. It's bad enough that I walk around not believing in myself (theres no need to play a violin. I'm not seeking sympathy), but at least I can still function and get on with the things I have to do. But not when the black dog comes to visit. Everything comes to a stop and I dont do a thing.
I know it will pass, but while it's here, could you go easy on me, please. Perhaps throw something nice my way for a change. I know that I'm a strong person...I have to be with all the shite I've been through since I was a child, but when this depression pays a visit, it completely crushes me.
Maybe it comes and forces me to stop. maybe it crushes me on purose to allow me to get a bit of a break from the constant crap that IS my life.
I apologise to anyone who is reading this for the negative vibe. It's just the way I am feeling today and I need to get it off my chest.
Thank you for listening. X