Updated: May 27, 2019
I think I’ve been feeling peace. It’s not constantly in focus, but it’s there and it’s beautiful. Peace has always been something that I assumed would be pretty boring. Happiness, Love, Passion; those are the exciting ones, right? Turns out peace is actually an overwhelming feeling of being and truth that I don’t think I’ve known before and it is more exciting than I ever dreamed. It makes me feel like I’m shining, and present, and real, and connected, and everything… it’s everything.
I asked you, Universe, for purpose. I must admit I thought I was reaching. My mind convinced me that I was slightly delusional and that the feeling I was searching for didn’t really exist. If it did exist, it only existed for someone else. Don’t get me wrong, my mind is still going there. ‘I’m probably kidding myself’, ‘I want this so badly, I’m just convincing myself I feel something I don’t’, ‘Nah, you’re talking a load of shite’. But, you know what? I don’t believe I am.
I started reading the Power of Now. I promise this is not a book review, I haven’t joined a cult and I’m not preaching, but for the love of all things awesome, you have got to read that book! It talks about now (obviously). I talk about trying to live in the now all the time but, to be honest, I’ve been thinking about and planning to live in the now so much I haven’t actually been doing it. I don’t understand all of this by a long way. For sure, there is still an element of planning, committing to a journey to better appreciate it and know how to sustain the state of presence. I have started to feel something though and all I want to do is share it with anyone else who might be open to feeling it too.
I’m not going to try and explain what wiser people than me can describe a lot more articulately, but I do want to write the simple things I have understood. The simple stuff is the stuff that is making me feel this way and it’s enough.
All there is is now.
Realise deeply that the now is all there is.
Wherever you are right now, be there completely.
Make the present your only focus.
There is no past or future.
Past is a memory.
Future is just thoughts, expectations and anticipation.
Right now is real, the only thing that is real.
Notice it and be present.
Hehe. I sound like a self-help book. I don’t care. Hippy-dippy as it may be, it has made me feel wonderful and given me a glimpse of a purpose I never thought I would truly feel. There’s so much more to explore about time and consciousness, realising that your true-self is not your thoughts/mind, space and nothingness, and lovely ideas of how we are connected. I’m not going to write about that until I get a better grasp of it myself. For now, I am in the now, I understand that. I am grateful for the present moment. I feel more myself than I think I have ever felt. If I can share this feeling even with one other person today, that would be super fab.
Acceptance looks like a passive state, but in reality it brings something entirely new into this world. That peace, a subtle energy vibration, is consciousness.